So sad!!!

I know I really have NO reason to be feeling sad that I have not had our baby yet. My due date is not until June 11th. However, I have been on medicine for the last 2 months to stop pre term labor. Even on the medicine I have been having contractions and dilating (which is not normal for me at all!) As of Thursday I was 37 weeks and the doctor said I could go off the medicine. So, I knew I'd have my baby within 24 - 48 hours going off the medicine and in my mind my due date was Thursday. I just couldn't imagine going any longer given the way this pregnancy has gone. But no....... I am still here and trying to think how it is possible I am not in the hospital with a new baby!
I woke up today determined to have the baby. We went and did a service project at a local cemetarty. I was raking leaves and doing yard work. We then went to the beach which requires effort with 3 little kids and all the gear we need for the beach. Then I cleaned our house (once again)..... but none of that worked. Too bad I was on this nasty medicine for the past 2 months that made me feel strange and gave me headaches and made me dizzy.....all for nothing?!?!? I guess our little girl isn't quite ready to come to the craziness of our lives right now! I guess I can't blame her. Life is really crazy right now.